I really, really can’t.

I try every day, to put on a brave face, try to get through.

Every fucking day.

Tell myself it will get better.

“I’m fine”  ”I’m ok” I say.

Fake smiles.

But nothing changes, if anything it gets harder.

I don’t want to die. I don’t think I want to die.

I just really can’t live like this anymore.

I can’t do it.

It’s breaking me down more and more with each day that goes by.

Every day, I feel myself getting closer to that point where I just.. give up completely.